It started as something we saw this one time, at this one place.
Before I knew you.
Before you knew me.
We were perfect then.
Knowing nothing at all, not even ourselves, and yet..
Yet.. We seemed to know everything.
Apart.
Separate.

Then we met, and like the flicker of a flame all of everything we knew went out the door. I learned again, filling an empty brain, like that of a newborn.
I learned language; the language of YOUR voice.
I learned science; the science of how YOU saw the world.
I learned mathematics; the formula, variables, measurements of YOUR body beneath my hands.
You gave me everything I ever wanted, and yet I was in poverty.
Of the soul.
Of the mind.
And in all eventuality, the heart.
Your lies were like ash, piling inside of me, so fine, so pure.
I thought not to cast it all away when I had the chance.
I used to know everything, everything to me, which was nothing to you.
You destroyed it, ate it, set it ablaze in my hands.
Smoldering.
Like love.
a lot like fucking love.
You never had anything but contempt.
Malignancy.
Morbidity.

"Ladies and gentlemen this is your captain speaking, we seem to have lost a bit of cabin pressure. I'll be dropping the oxygen masks down for your safety"

Wake. The. Fuck. Up.

Inhale..
Exhale..
Inhale..
Exhale..
Stand up, walk out the door and be free again.
Inhale..
Exhale..
Inhale..
Exhale..
Lay in this hospital bed, let the machines take over your breathing, eating, fucking.
Inhale..
Exhale..
Inhale..
Exhale..